I have a confession to make to my XBL friends. I am actually female, yep, I’m a real life woman. I know the gamertag and the swearing may make me seem like a 13 year old boy, but I’m actually not. I have boobs (no pics) and I like men and everything! In real life, the way I look is pretty important to me (not cause I’m female of course but cause I’m shallow like that) and in games, my appearance is just as important as my kill/death ratio. I want a pwetty character, I want to be the girl! I want to wear pink and have long hair and be Zoey in L4D. In single player, it matters not so much, I can take on the role of a guy no problem. I’m being told a story, playing a part, seeing through the eyes of the protagonist but then some people play games so that they can be someone else.
When I play, I want to be me! I want the adventures, I want to save the day! I want to ruthlessly gun you down and I want you to know, without a doubt, that it was me! So it’s in multiplayer that I’m at my most fussy. I’m not being told a story, I’m not playing a part, I’m trying to make kills and score points. Cause that’s me, y’know, that little person running around most likely shooting at you. It represents me, has my skills, my flaws and my gamertag above its head. I much prefer playing games when I’m able to relate to the virtual figure I’m controlling and when I have to play as a male character I’m less likely to feel like it’s me right there in the action. And yes, I’m well aware that what I’m doing here is stamping my foot and stropping cause ffs, I don’t wanna be a stinky boy!
I get laughed at while playing Gears of War when I let people know that the reason I play as Carmine, the rookie, the guy who dies horribly, is because he wears a helmet, and you never know, he could be a chick… with a really deep voice… under all that armour… and Anthony could totally be a girl’s name on the planet of Sera right!?
I don’t want to be treated differently because I’m a female gamer, I don’t think I’m special because I play games, anyone can do it. I just want to be one of the gang, I want to blend in with the noise and chatter, and I’m pefectly happy to be one of the boys for a while. But I still want to be me, a mouthy, argumentative Welsh chick. I want to snipe you, beat you down or tell you to F*ck off for killing me and I want to look good whilst doing it.
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